For some amusement, I tried Ami's new found personality test that's getting under her skin. Mine was pretty dead on - even the stuff I'd less like to admit and for that part, doubt. However, I tend to disagree highly on the test's assessment that I'm introverted to the point where I don't go out and meet new people... etc. Yes, for the most part I prefer the company of one to the company of many but that doesn't mean I don't go out to parties or random social gatherings and meet new people.
It got me thinking though... first, the typical definition of introversion and extroversion. While this may not be diction, to me I look into the view of either persona and look into their motives. Every person who I would confidently say is truly extroverted is actually completely narcissistic - perhaps by necessity. I've always found it difficult to carry on polite BS conversations cause I don't care to prattle on about myself and I don't care to ask questions which allow me to turn the conversation back to prattling about myself. To be fair... maybe some of those extroverted people really are curious of others thoughts and have a knack for getting that out of them... I simply don't care to put the effort into it for strangers. Hmm, this may be biting into the point I was getting at in that the introverted person actually may care more about others than themselves when it comes to conversation and focuses maybe too much into who the other person is. Ok, revision, extroverted people have no qualms about being narcissistic (or maybe letting others indulge in their narcissism?) while introverts are very selective into who they let into their world or who's world they want to explore. Hmm, still doesn't seem to completely satisfy. I guess I keep looking to people I know who I'd call one or the other and try to attach some level of vanity to them - but I keep coming up with singularities that contradict my points. As far as my current theory goes, singularities on the extroverted side, I highly like... singularities on the introverted side, I highly dislike. I guess it just comes down to levels of vanity and narcissism.
My other point is a little more personal in my rationale behind a personality test pegging me as introverted. Basically, I need another person around whenever I do something new. Well, not
need as in safety blanket need but my fun is multiplied if I have someone to share it with - exponentially if I connect with that person. When it comes down to it, while a lot of my personal philosophies value human life - I still dislike a lot of people on a personal level when I get to know them. It's always really nice when I can be with someone who I can turn to and look into each others eyes and mutually think "What the fuck?". Otherwise I just have to swallow my exasperation.
On the whole of personality tests... I was thinking if they're accurate, why do you need to take one? The rub: you aren't sure who you are.